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Mar. 1st, 2008

eleven;; sunglasses

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god i suck

Jan. 30th, 2008

six;; sweet smile and a great hat

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You know what makes me smile?



C-A-M-P-F-I-R-E S-O-N-G SONG.

:)

Jan. 23rd, 2008

thirteen;; heath

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I'm sad today.

Dec. 25th, 2007

thirteen;; heath

dsfgkjdfk

MERRY CHRISTMAS YOU GUYS! I LOVE YOU ALL!

♥ ♥ ♥

Dec. 15th, 2007

thirteen;; heath

HAHAHAHA. XD

SO. In inmidian on IJ, we have a decent amount of King Arthur players. I, myself, started the movement when I took up Tristan. My friend Joe usoppism plays Arthur. People in inmidian are talking about Christmas, so Arthur is getting presents for the knights. I told Joe that Tristan wants a pony.

This is the crack that ensued.

usoppism: Tristan wants a pony?
iucunditas: Yes. :l
iucunditas: He wants a pony and some more arrows and and and a new sword, and a scarf and some gloves and a new hat.
iucunditas: And some chocolate.
iucunditas: AAAAAND. UHM. 8D
usoppism: An easy bake oven?
iucunditas: jksadjksdfs
iucunditas: noooo
iucunditas: That's for Galahad.
usoppism: XDDDDD
usoppism: I LOL'D.
iucunditas: Imagine Galahad using an easy bake oven?
usoppism: Baking treats for Gawain. x:
iucunditas: With an apron.
usoppism: And matching oven mitts.
iucunditas: "Gawain, sweetie pumpkin muffin sugar butt. <3 I baked you some cookies shaped as axes because I know you loooooove axes."
usoppism: sdfhsdg
usoppism: God. XD Now I'm picturing it.
iucunditas: And Gawain would be like " ... OH YUM. *EATS THEM ALL WITHOUT SAYING THANK YOU BECAUSE HE'S A REAL MAN, NOT LIKE SOME EASY BAKE OVEN TARD. LOLOLOL*"
usoppism: And Galahad would bite his bottom lip, sniff and be all "YOU DON'T APPRECIATE ME!" then stalk off in a huff.
iucunditas: YES. YES
iucunditas: LMAO LMAO
iucunditas: "YOU DON'T APPRECIATE ME OR THE BABY"
usoppism: "YOU JUST WANT ME FOR MY BODY!"
usoppism: XDDD WHO'S THE BABY?
iucunditas: UHM. ... DSFJHSJDKH UHUHUH. THEY CAN STEAL ONE OF BORS'S.
usoppism: LMAO. AWESOME. HE HAS 12 ANYWAY.
iucunditas: 11
usoppism: LOL. I FORGOT.
iucunditas: We should TOTALLY rewrite the movie.
usoppism: I agree.

Dec. 12th, 2007

thirteen;; heath

(no subject)

NEW DEFAULT ICON.

:D

FOR THE HOLIDAYS.

*pets Christmas Lancelot*

Dec. 4th, 2007

thirteen;; heath

Oh chreestmas treee~

Nov. 20th, 2007

thirteen;; heath

Of apologies, rantings and explanations;

Fine. People want me to talk? I'll talk. I can't please everyone, as a matter of fact I piss off a person every day, it's in my nature, it's who I am. I can give you honesty I can write down for hours and hours, paragraph upon paragraph and chances are you won't like it. You will narrow your eyes, feel anger boil in your belly. I am anger, I am your anger. Do I relish in it? Do I relish in the fact that my biggest strength is to make someone hate me? No. No I do not. But it happens, I have bowed down and accepted the fact that I am the bane of most people's existence.

Now here is the truth; I am tired. Good lord I am tired how is it supposed to be a game to me when I am fighting to keep the people I play with interested in the game? Drop then. Leave. I can't do it anymore. I will lose otp's, friendships what-have-you. I'm losing people that I love so much to other games, other people. I don't want to hear about your logs, I don't want to hear about these games that you love playing at when you are so unhappy with the one game we share. I don't. I'm jealous and hurt. I'm not good enough to hold on to people, I thought I had some RP skill, mediocre at best, but I don't. I mustn't. I don't log anymore, not with the people I care for the most. I hear about their logging, their fun and adoration to the rp partner of their dreams. It's just a game, you say. This is clearly and overreaction of some kind, and maybe it is; I am prone to this sort of reply. This is how I do it. I am emotional, I cry at the drop of a hat, I curse and I get angry. But that is who I am, it's how I have always been.

I would love nothing more than to quit all my RPs. Surely I wouldn't be letting anyone down, I don't interact or role play with anyone anymore. Mayhaps a year was too long, like all else everything fades, withers and dies, RP relationships the same. I do love talking, casual chatter is nothing short but fascinating, time-consuming and I love it. I do. But whenever the conversation takes a turn to that topic which I most utterly dislike; rp, I don't want to hear it. Tell me of your muses, that is fine; I often talk of my own because writing them is a part of me. But I don't want to hear of this one RP which is so awesome because so-and-so is there and you LOVE playing with them SOOOO much. My otp is brought up, I hear you playing it with other people (not that that is a problem, I am not that shallow, play with whom you like) and I see it progressing at a normal casual pace, wherein at our place it has come to a full stop. All of our pairings have gone to a full. stop.

Am I really that terrible?

Although I spoke of this and begged apology for this before;

I am sorry, no matter if it is futile or not. I am truly sorry. Sorry that I am not good enough nor interesting enough. Just say the word and I will drop my muses so you can be more comfortable to drop your own.

That is all.
thirteen;; heath

(no subject)

It's times like these where I just have to say; fuck. everything.

Nov. 14th, 2007

thirteen;; heath

(no subject)

You know what?

I'm done.

I'm done.

By tomorrow all my rps will either have hiatus notices or leaving messages.

Depends on my mood.

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